In contrast to my post last night, this one will hopefully be a little uplifting. And will prove that I'm really not "struggling" or "depressed" or anything like that, as some have told me I've sounded. I'm just a little bit cynical at times, that's all.
Anyways.
I like to consider myself the white, female, non-rapper version of a rapper. They say what they want and flaunt their financial freedom, all while saying "get money, hoes, clothes, cars, and F the world."
Now, I don't have much when it comes to financial freedom. Or hoes. But I do do what I want and say what I want while subliminally telling the rest of the world to go screw themselves if they have a problem with it. It takes a lot to get to this point so I'm proud of my white rapper girl attitude.
Speaking of, what is instilled in you guys that makes you automatically fear others? You need to realize...in your life, you have all the power. All of it. Not just what comes out of your mouth, but everything pertaining to your experiences while you're breathing and walking. Some instances are out of your control, sure--but it's the way you deal with them that gives you power. Reactions are just as important as the initial action because one can't happen without the other. Okay, look: I know better than anyone how much easier it is and how much instant gratification I get when I play the victim in the situation. That way it's never my fault, it's because of everything around me that I feel a certain way. Well, that's not only completely false but it also gets old. As my mom loves to tell me, snap out of your "poor, poor pitiful me" attitude. You'll get nowhere. Trust me. Time to take control of your own life and say "F you world, I have the power."
Those of you who don't agree could have the Poor Poor Pitiful Me syndrome. And that's fine, I feel you on everything you're arguing because I've been there. I'm kind of still there. But just knowing that my life is in my hands makes me excited, and what's better than that? Isn't that what we all crave? Besides love and sex and money, of course. Excitement is definitely in the top five.
So if you hate your job, husband, wife, the color of your hair (skin is a little out of your reach, unless you pull an MJ...sorry), whatever it is...change it. Stop whining and wake up to the notion that if you started it, you can end it and start something new. Those "buts" and "what ifs" are what drive you to your local dive bar to cry and complain about stuff they really don't care about. In fact, if they could, they'd probably say exactly what you're reading now. So take this as a PSA: If you're unhappy, do something about it. Stop making excuses for yourself. You made yourself unhappy and you can just as easily take that 180 and be happy. Is it a process? Yes. Revelations like these don't just ripen overnight. But I promise, it's worth the wait.
Point blank: You've got the power. Now use it.
Stay strong,
Shannon
