My last post was back in the summer, and since then, there's been every reason in the world to pick it back up. I just haven't gotten around to it, and thanks to school projects like this nine-page memoir I need to be finishing right now, consistency doesn't look promising. It's such a shame to not have enough time in the day to do what you love, you know?
I'll come right out and tell you that there's no specific point to this post. Just random thoughts that I need to untangle from my head before I drive myself crazy.
1. The rain. What's not to love about the rain? So what if the beach or a jog are out of the question? The rain gives me the time to think. It slows things down, makes you absorb the life you've built around yourself. Rain is fresh, new, natural, amazing. It inspires me so much, pushes me to a point that sometimes, I don't know if sunshine can get the same depth out of me. Am I crazy?
2. Joyriding. Again, the inspiration. It's everywhere whenever I drive for no reason. Just imagine joyriding in the rain...I give myself chills when I break through to a new idea just because I happened to look at a random something on my way to nowhere. It's the best when driving alone: Nothing but music and thoughts to occupy the time. That sounds pretty terrible to some people, I can imagine.
3. Dreams. I have my dreams, and I have my intentions on seeing them through. Clearly, I want to be a writer, a novelist, an author, whatever. Where's the job security in that? If you find any, let me know. I better be damn good at writing stories if I ever want to keep a roof over my head. To all you doctors and lawyers out there: I hope you find joy in spending your entire lives in your professions. Really. I know I'll never belong in the corporate world, like I literally just couldn't do that with my life. So, my writing is my only ticket. You docs and DA's have it a lot easier than I do, but you can bet I'll make it eventually.
4. Colorado. Perfection. I'll fall in love with something about Colorado that will help me make a home for myself. Really, what's not to love about the west?
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5. Time. Whether you're stressing, crying, grieving, anything...it won't pass the test of time. Wait it out, be around good people, laugh, and meet new friends. Turn a new leaf. Hurt first...then heal. Easier said than done? Absolutely. But it can be done. Time is our own personal mechanism for creating change. When you look at it that way, it's pretty awesome.
My rambling is done and I still haven't found what I needed to finish my memoir. Oh well, maybe tomorrow my thoughts will be more together...I'll go play in the rain or something...
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